Happy Halloween 08

I feel tired from what may be a prank call at 7:16AM. You never mess with someone's sleep that is torture. I went back to my nap until 7:20AM to get ready for my morning cleansing. The path to my bath is 50 steps in total because we couldn't use the shower upstairs for the condition of my mom's radioactive aoe. At least today is the last day for using the basement's bathroom. The sucky thing about using the basement shower is that using the hot water makes a nasty constantly ringing noises. As a adaptive species, I bought my cellphone to play music on loud speaker. The overall good song to play on my cellphone was "Greenday - Jesus of Suburbia". This song is punk-ish and is 9mins+. The annoying thing about my cellphone's music player is that you have to manually change songs and click play to replay the song you are on. Also the bathroom is small thought it makes me feel like giant, I can't help to feel pressure of the lack of space. This must be the burden of tall people.

My meal of the day was two pork-buns. I sat at my desk watching the latest Naruto: Shippuden eps 82, eating and putting on my everyday mask. Halloween for many is a fun day to dress up and leech from the monopoly of candy. For my family, it is probably one of the most undesired holidays because usually every year we put up a sigh saying "No Candy". One year, we got egged and the egg stain stayed there for a good year or two. This year, I guess it would be better to conform with social norms and have one less stain in our lives. Andy said I should buy expired candy lol, since a devilish person. Andy usually implies his ideas in a funny way that kids would eat and remember not to come to our house.



Isn't it interesting how there is a holiday to cover a mask with another mask. I would rather celebrate it by removing the mask and shine it around. But I feel I am not strong enough to rip off this mask. This mask is engraved in my soul and I can't break this curse of my timid mind. A fool I am, I should not think so negatively my self-esteem is already low and with my mother with cancer how can I ever think straight in this entanglement of my eyes.